April 22, 2012

Celebrated the 21st birthday of my baby brother and my best girl cousin, Friday. I got on a boat, drank a little to much and ended up throwing it all up at the end of the night. Three times, I don’t think I drank that much but I guess, I don’t hold my alcohol well. 

Saturday morning, my sister and I helped give away clothes, food and hygiene products to this little community. It was pretty crazy. You go off the road and walk a little ways away into the thicket of trees and there lies makeshift houses, made from whatever they could find, from tents to pieces of wood here and there. Things you’d think you would only see this in a third world country. The area smelled of piss and shit. It’s hard to imagine a place like this, we are in america aren’t we? It’s sad that some people fall so hard and they end up in a place like that. As we walked through the entire community we prayed for the place to be a drug free zone, for God to take back his people and break every chain that keeps them there.

What amazed me the most was the people that came to help, expecting nothing in return. There was a diverse mix of people of all ages, there were kids under ten years old, to an old lady with a bag of sandwiches in hand. It gives me hope that not all people live in a self serving way, like those in our culture normally do, myself included. It gives me hope that I live that way too. 

I honestly had fun on that boat, but serving those in need, made my life worth living again. It also made me so thankful for the roof over my head and clothes on my back. Not to mention working plumbing. 

April 16, 2012

(Source: itsmoh, via quote-book)

April 15, 2012

That’s my biggest problem. It’s like complaining about freedom. The world is at my fingertips. Anything I wish, anything I want to be, could and will someday come true. 

April 3, 2012
I’m an island girl, what can I say.

I’m an island girl, what can I say.

(Source: justlittlethings)

April 3, 2012

Today as I was running, my heart felt like it was being crushed, but it was only for a moment. I’m always scared that there’s something wrong with my heart. I know it’s because I have had so many family members die from heart attacks, stroke and such. I feel like I have a bad heart. So I slowed my pace. At that moment I had a revelation. I want to live. I have to admit that at times, life seems so pointless and I just want it to be over already. Like a bad day. I just want to get to heaven and just bask in the goodness of God. I have been running and running, trying to reach the finish line, that I forget all the good things along the way. I have so much to do still, and so much more to look forward to. Not just travel the world but there’s so much of life I have yet to experience. I just got to slow down and enjoy the little things, because time is fleeting and we’re never gonna get these moments back.

Today as I was running, my heart felt like it was being crushed, but it was only for a moment. I’m always scared that there’s something wrong with my heart. I know it’s because I have had so many family members die from heart attacks, stroke and such. I feel like I have a bad heart. So I slowed my pace. At that moment I had a revelation. I want to live. I have to admit that at times, life seems so pointless and I just want it to be over already. Like a bad day. I just want to get to heaven and just bask in the goodness of God. I have been running and running, trying to reach the finish line, that I forget all the good things along the way. I have so much to do still, and so much more to look forward to. Not just travel the world but there’s so much of life I have yet to experience. I just got to slow down and enjoy the little things, because time is fleeting and we’re never gonna get these moments back.

March 14, 2012
"Hearts broke when your heart stopped beating…Just a moment there is better than here."

— JJ Heller

March 11, 2012
“103 stories up”
Chicago, Illinois

“103 stories up”

Chicago, Illinois

March 11, 2012
Spring Forward.

Decided to write tonight, even though I am exhausted but I am content. I started going to a new church a couple of months ago and it was nice to be able to just go to a service, hear the message and then leave. No responsibility. Just enjoying God’s word, and enjoying God’s company. But as time passed, I felt the need to get involved and as much as I wanted to; I made every excuse not to. But God knows better. I look back at my past ministries and I feel like a complete failure. I feel like I mess everything up but I think God was just stripping me of my preconceive notion of christianity and bring me back to the root of my beliefs. He let me fall, so I can rise up and I am happy to give him praise every time. It’s hard but it’s humbling. I feel like everything I’ve gone through has brought me to where I am today. 

God has given me dreams that I have never dreamed of doing and he has reminded me of the ones I’ve forgotten. I’m still praying for them but I know God is the God of possibilities. Let’s see how this plays out. 

January 15, 2012

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